Wake up in extreme pain and have to miss Diverge meeting.
My horse dies.
I finally stop hurting around 12:30ish.
I find an appartment to live in for next month. (lol @ no more roommates to screw me over.)
Watched Fantastic Four 2 (sucked).
Did laundry.
Sleep.
nothing ever works right.
that is all.
Ok, so last night I had to help out a friend finish a very important project. We get done around 12:30 am. I head home and fall asleep around 1:00-1:20 or so. I then get up at 5:30 am and prepare for work. Not only was today especially hard due to lack of sleep but due to my sickness I have very little energy anyways.
Fibro can cause chronic fatigue. Couple that with being in a lot of pain, sleep deprivation, emotional AND physical strain and you get a tired and exhuasted Scotty. Usually after Sundays I tend to go home and just rest the entire day. It’s about all I can do.
So, if I’m ever invited some where on Sundays after church and I decline or don’t show up, it’s not because I don’t WANT to be there… It’s probably because I’m not in good enough shape to be there. So, take it easy on me 
Sorry bout the lack of updates recently. Nothing exciting has really happened.
The majority of my time lately has been devoted to work. I had to get caught up and ready for this week because I’m off and had to have everything cool for next week.
I’ve also been dealing with getting my heart in the right place. It’s been rough lately. Depression is a sick and twisted beast that constantly attacks and never lets up. It’s a full time job just trying to supress it. I don’t really know what else to say…
“tearing in my heart when the world falls apart
and it’s almost too hard
tarry in my soul and you help make me whole
when it’s all said and done”
-Sunny Day Real Estate
Here is a pretty sweet music video I found on youtube earlier.
another cool video
There is a blog where all of the staff from Genesischurch.tv is posting on during the One Prayer series. Today I posted a blog entitled “God, make us fearless.” Check it out here. Show some love on the One Prayer blog! 
So, today I worked till noon then me and Scott went to the movies for the rest of the day. We saw the hulk and then we saw the strangers.
First, the hulk. I was really impressed. People talk about how the CGI looks fake, WELL FRIKIN DUH. What do you expect? It’s a giant green monster. What do you really have to compare to it? NOTHING. Quit crying. I enjoyed the cameos as well. Good ol’ Stan Lee likes to appear in his movies. Lou showed up as well, heh. Overall I really liked it. With the drama aspects mixing up all the action it really made a cohesive story. I think the Abomination was a good first villain pick. I wonder who they are choosing next?
**SPOILER WARNING**
I got really, REALLY exciting at the end where Tony Stark walks into the bar. I was squealing like a school girl at a boy band concert!
**END SPOILER WARNING**
Next is The Strangers. Now, before I get into the movie I want to make clear that I go to a scary movie to get scared. I don’t expect the story to be that great or the acting to be amazing. I go to get the feeling in my stomach that something horrible is about to happen. Now, with that said, let me get onto the movie.
The protagonists in this movie kinda pissed me off. When they could have defended themselves or fought back, all they did was run. I understand being scared that some freaky guy with a bag on his head is chasing you around with a knife… BUT FRIKIN PICK UP AN AXE AND USE IT! So many times I was thinking to myself “who does that?!? SERIOUSLY??” I also noticed quite a bit of plot holes. For instance, Liv’s character asks “Why are you doing this to us?” and the evil mask wearing chick says “Because you were home.” Ok, so, they randomly chose a target that just happened to be home at the time. Ok, fine. If this is the case though, how did they know so much about the people in the house AND the layout of the house/property? Yeah, little things like that bugged the crap out of me.
The movie was the type of movie that is simply there to make you jump a few dozen times. After that, it loses its flair and becomes stale. If you want to jump a few times and see some people act retarded, this just may be the movie for you!!
That was my day. I enjoyed it
Firefox 3 was officially released yesterday. For those that don’t know what firefox is, it’s the fastest, coolest, most awesomest browser I have used. It’s also a lot safer than Internet Explorer. Check it out.
Also, with the release of Firefox 3, the team who makes Internet Explorer sent a cake to the Firefox team.
http://mozillalinks.org/wp/2008/06/sweet-plugin-microsoft-cake-20-for-firefox-3/
Pretty cool.
A friend asked me the other day “have you noticed how different you are acting? It’s a good change.”
The last couple years have been rough. During this time I have gone through many ups and downs. About a month ago I noticed I was living a bitter and angry life. Once I realized that, I decided to change. I noticed I was focusing on the horrible things instead of putting my sights on the amazing things. So I decided to switch what I was putting my focus on. When I think about all the blessings in my life I get overwhelmed. It truly is amazing all that is happening in my life. I have a great (although some times frustrating) job, awesome family, amazing friends, and a great relationship with God. I truly am blessed.
After I put my focus on the amazing things my attitude towards life start to shift. It was a great change that needed to take place. Even though I still struggle with fibro and the effects that the disease causes (stress, depression, chronic tiredness, etc..) I get on my face every day before the Lord and plead with Him to help me focus my attention on Him. That has been the difference maker. Maybe that’s what all this is about? Maybe this affliction is here to make me rely on God instead of relying on myself… Who knows?
What I do know is that my life may suck at times, but that does not change the fact that I am a blessed man. I will continually focus on God and the amazing things He is doing through my life that nobody (myself included) can truly yet recognize or see.
Have you noticed a difference?
